29.12.05
28.12.05
i've had lunch with tata, vargitas, juanfra, and helen the last few days, and it's been so nice to catch up with them :D but i guess eventually the ticos will have to start spending time with other people! (sigh!)
it's going to be a busy week, with classes every night and a breakfast devotional this weekend at my flat, and a salsa party on friday (jejeje...)
have to prepare for a study circle that starts tonight, i'm acting as the tutor for book 5, which i only semi-finished (not the first time i've only semi-finished a book... hmmm...) i'm thinking of having a lot of "guest tutors" come talk about different aspects, like storytelling, and drama, and have a group come sing for us... should be nice :)
27.12.05
mamita called me last night, worried after reading yesterday's entry... but all is well, it's not so much sadness as it is reflection... i've actually had a really nice couple of days, there was a pacific devotional the other night, and it was awesome to see everyone again, and then yesterday i finally ran into all the ticos who are visiting-- so funny to be sitting in the lunch room in haifa, israel, and see tata and vargitas and juanfra walk down the stairs... and then to run into helen in the hall! plus, last night i ate dinner with the khadems and got to see pictures of niaz in bolivia, along with photos of paul and lorena (who, by the way, is such an ighani already... she looks a lot like layla!)
i think though, that we're all missing home... even going to albuquerque didn't quite quench my craving for family... "just visiting" isn't the same as being around all the time... and i haven't gotten in touch with eriquita in forever! if you read this, i'll try and call tonight, yeah?
work has been interesting... so many people in the office are running around like crazy, working ridiculous hours because of the counsellor's conference, and meanwhile, i'm on the web for a lot of the day, just trying to keep my mind occupied when there isn't much to do... maybe that's where all the nostalgia came from... hmmm....
26.12.05
it's still incredibly hard sometimes to deal with everything that's happened, to conformarme con la voluntad de dios, aun si significa aceptar que pancho no va volver, que el corazon de miguel nunca latio y que no lo voy a conocer. but then i realize that even so, this place i'm at now, not even necesarrily serving in the holy land, but this emotional point where i feel strangely detached from my past life(s), from all the places i've lived and even from friends that i used to feel almost obsessively connected to... it's new, but good.
i'm almost at the point that my friend is at, to willingly give myself over to whatever god has planned for me (not that i ever had control to begin with, but...) it's really scary to think that again, it might be something that will be so painful and completely opposite to my own will...
i wish there was a way to know where we're all going to end up. to know if my sisters and i will ever all live close enough to not have to take a plane to see eachother, if i'll get to help raise all our kids together, if we'll all find this bliss that everyone seems to be searching for, or if we're meant to suffer by living apart.
i get these waves of homesickness, not for places or even times in my life, but for people.
what if the will of god is more pain?
25.12.05
lo bueno es que todos los colores se amplifican con la lluvia, asi que no hay un white christmas, mas bien una navidad multitono, donde no hay luces en las ventanas, pero donde las flores demanadan tu atencion con su llamado colorido y donde el desierto se torna verde de la nada...
22.12.05
21.12.05
no snow as of yet...
it's officially the first day of winter today, and all the frangipangis have lost their blooms... sigh.
20.12.05
~*~ sasha leyli ~*~
sasha leyli pyburn nacio el 6 de diciembre a las 11:26 de la man~ana... menos de 24 horas despues de mi llegada a albuquerque!!! parece que esta nenita estaba esperando que llegara su tia para recibirla :) fue tan increible verla nacer, aria tan fuerte durante todo el parto y james un apoyo increible para ella. nacio rodeada de amor, y tengo la certeza absoluta de que va ser una chica maravillosa... (o sera que simplemente soy una tia orgullosa? jejeje)
9.12.05
~*~ sounds of the world ~*~
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